Yesterday marks the first time in an anatomy lab, first time smelling preserved human, first time seeing cadaver and first time touching human lung (among other things).
I'm not gonna lie, the smell is horrendous. nono...the initial smell walking into the lab was not so bad. When we opened the body bag and uncovered the body, THAT was when it got bad.
My boss at Abbott's shared with me the first day he came back from anatomy lab in pharmacy school, his mom made pai gu tang (pork rib soup). Yesterday, we covered the thoracic cavity and studied the ribs ad nauseum (literally).
The new quarter has had a VERY eventful start. We'll see how the rest of it pans out.
I have pictures from my birthday, just waiting on other pictures. will post later.
::shameless plug::
RUN BAY TO BREAKERS~!!!!
::end shameless plug::
Wednesday 29 March 2006
Thursday 23 March 2006
That's All...
what does "that's all" mean?
That's all you need to know?
That's all I'm going to tell you.
That's all I do know.
anyway, a bunch of us have decided to run bay to breakers. Come run/train with us!!! (crystal springs reservoir april fools in the am) perhaps ggpark the week after? come come come! It's a good goal seeing as I didn't have a very structured exercise regimen for the past 2 quarters. This'll be good. And if you want to come out and join the party, the race starts at 8am at the embarcadero and ends (hopefully we'll be done by 10am) at ocean beach (the edge of golden gate park). Then we can all visit CityChurch together!! :)
Something that's taken up i'd say....53% of my thoughts is the whole job thing. It's freaking stressing me out!! Something to pray about, because I can find so many small small petty things to get worked up/stressed out about and this is break, no stressing should be allowed during breaks.
that's all.
That's all you need to know?
That's all I'm going to tell you.
That's all I do know.
anyway, a bunch of us have decided to run bay to breakers. Come run/train with us!!! (crystal springs reservoir april fools in the am) perhaps ggpark the week after? come come come! It's a good goal seeing as I didn't have a very structured exercise regimen for the past 2 quarters. This'll be good. And if you want to come out and join the party, the race starts at 8am at the embarcadero and ends (hopefully we'll be done by 10am) at ocean beach (the edge of golden gate park). Then we can all visit CityChurch together!! :)
Something that's taken up i'd say....53% of my thoughts is the whole job thing. It's freaking stressing me out!! Something to pray about, because I can find so many small small petty things to get worked up/stressed out about and this is break, no stressing should be allowed during breaks.
that's all.
Saturday 18 March 2006
Cursory Reflections
Seeing as another quarter has passed and another year of life is coming to a close, it'd be interesting to take an inventory of what's happened this past year/quarter.
Abstract:
This year as been an amazingly productive, heartwrenching, happifying, life-changing action packed year.
Background:
Each year, God has made things increasingly harder. I constantly find myself looking back on elementary school, junior high, and high school with fondness and realize that those were truly innocent days, although at the time they were so serious and stressful. If only me (then) knew what was going to happen to me (now). But with all the nonstop-ness, I'm learning how to treasure these times of nothingness (spring break) where I can sleep 11.5 hours and do brainless stuff like clean my parents' fridge (by eating and physically removing things that look old and questionable).
Methods:
This year I...
1) celebrated my 22nd birthday on another continent. :)
2) ended a ~2.4 year long relationship
3) graduated from college
4) went to china and thailand
5) counseled at ysc for the first time
6) moved to san francisco in search of a new life/community and found it. :)
7) started pharmacy school
8) started dating David. (aka mr. smooth)
9) learned how to find new friends and keep old ones. (but still not the best)
Results:
I've effectively survived.
Discussion:
"May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit." Romans 15:13
God of hope - what comfort knowing that we believe in a God of hope. how crappy would it be to believe in something that would provide nothing but meaningless randomness and oblivion as the end result.
fill you with all joy and peace - this is what the good stuff is made of when crunch time comes. i constantly find myself losing all joy and peace when i'm tired and stressed. it's a result of the sinful flesh, the selfish sinful wretch that i am, the part that I have not yet chosen to let go to God, even though I know in my head that it would reap a millionfold of good things maybe not now, but i the future. joy and peace. that's the stuff. stay away from the crystal meth, the alcohol, the sex, the money. it's joy and peace.
trust in Him - i've become impatient. i want things certain right now. that leaves little room for trust. Come to think of it, things are so paradoxical. you let go, relinquish control over something so it will turn out for the better. isn't that counterintuitive? It is if one is thinking under the paradigm that "I am master and can accomplish all." Well, this is something i've been constantly broken by: GET OVER YOURSELF. YOU HAVE NO CONTROL. WHAT LITTLE CONTROL YOU HAVE IS NOT YOUR OWN ANYWAY. Sorry that came off so harsh, but there's good news at the end. Let go to gain something so much greater than yourself. Let go in trust. it's so easy to rely on someone or something that you can control. but after failure, how will i trust myself anymore? better to trust in Someone that never fails. someone that knows all and can do everything, Someone infintely wise. Easy to think, hard to follow through and live it.
You may overflow with hope: overflow. how great it is to think that we have this infinite resource. so much that it will overflow. in trust, God's joy, peace and (if I may add grace and mercy) will be manifest in us and OVERFLOWING. what does that mean? it is sufficient for me and enough to give to others. God has taught me a lot about my own selfishness. I take a lot expecting that others will freely give. it's not about accepting, it's about the expectation that someone else will give it. the fallacy? I think I am deserving of others' good will, of the patience that other people give when in reality I am not. Tapping into God, abiding in Christ who is the vine will (in a slow process) for one get rid of the expectation that we are deserving of all good things and give enough for overflow. enough for those around us.
By the power of the Holy Spirit: Not to us, but to Your name be the glory. the Holy Spring can do exceedingly beyond what we ask or imagine. "Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us" Ephesians 3:20. Our salvation is embedded in Christ and the Holy Spirit comes to fill us with power. It's one thing to empty ourselves, the finishing touch is making our lives a home for the Holy Spirit to dwell. Instead of a garage sale home, make it a crate and barrel home.
Further research:
This was written AFTER tests, AFTER stress and AFTER pms. How feasible is it to try these things and to think these things DURING everything? We'll see.
Reference:
Chu, R. J of RTOTW. http://outofdableu.blogspot.com. Published March 18, 2006.
Abstract:
This year as been an amazingly productive, heartwrenching, happifying, life-changing action packed year.
Background:
Each year, God has made things increasingly harder. I constantly find myself looking back on elementary school, junior high, and high school with fondness and realize that those were truly innocent days, although at the time they were so serious and stressful. If only me (then) knew what was going to happen to me (now). But with all the nonstop-ness, I'm learning how to treasure these times of nothingness (spring break) where I can sleep 11.5 hours and do brainless stuff like clean my parents' fridge (by eating and physically removing things that look old and questionable).
Methods:
This year I...
1) celebrated my 22nd birthday on another continent. :)
2) ended a ~2.4 year long relationship
3) graduated from college
4) went to china and thailand
5) counseled at ysc for the first time
6) moved to san francisco in search of a new life/community and found it. :)
7) started pharmacy school
8) started dating David. (aka mr. smooth)
9) learned how to find new friends and keep old ones. (but still not the best)
Results:
I've effectively survived.
Discussion:
"May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit." Romans 15:13
God of hope - what comfort knowing that we believe in a God of hope. how crappy would it be to believe in something that would provide nothing but meaningless randomness and oblivion as the end result.
fill you with all joy and peace - this is what the good stuff is made of when crunch time comes. i constantly find myself losing all joy and peace when i'm tired and stressed. it's a result of the sinful flesh, the selfish sinful wretch that i am, the part that I have not yet chosen to let go to God, even though I know in my head that it would reap a millionfold of good things maybe not now, but i the future. joy and peace. that's the stuff. stay away from the crystal meth, the alcohol, the sex, the money. it's joy and peace.
trust in Him - i've become impatient. i want things certain right now. that leaves little room for trust. Come to think of it, things are so paradoxical. you let go, relinquish control over something so it will turn out for the better. isn't that counterintuitive? It is if one is thinking under the paradigm that "I am master and can accomplish all." Well, this is something i've been constantly broken by: GET OVER YOURSELF. YOU HAVE NO CONTROL. WHAT LITTLE CONTROL YOU HAVE IS NOT YOUR OWN ANYWAY. Sorry that came off so harsh, but there's good news at the end. Let go to gain something so much greater than yourself. Let go in trust. it's so easy to rely on someone or something that you can control. but after failure, how will i trust myself anymore? better to trust in Someone that never fails. someone that knows all and can do everything, Someone infintely wise. Easy to think, hard to follow through and live it.
You may overflow with hope: overflow. how great it is to think that we have this infinite resource. so much that it will overflow. in trust, God's joy, peace and (if I may add grace and mercy) will be manifest in us and OVERFLOWING. what does that mean? it is sufficient for me and enough to give to others. God has taught me a lot about my own selfishness. I take a lot expecting that others will freely give. it's not about accepting, it's about the expectation that someone else will give it. the fallacy? I think I am deserving of others' good will, of the patience that other people give when in reality I am not. Tapping into God, abiding in Christ who is the vine will (in a slow process) for one get rid of the expectation that we are deserving of all good things and give enough for overflow. enough for those around us.
By the power of the Holy Spirit: Not to us, but to Your name be the glory. the Holy Spring can do exceedingly beyond what we ask or imagine. "Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us" Ephesians 3:20. Our salvation is embedded in Christ and the Holy Spirit comes to fill us with power. It's one thing to empty ourselves, the finishing touch is making our lives a home for the Holy Spirit to dwell. Instead of a garage sale home, make it a crate and barrel home.
Further research:
This was written AFTER tests, AFTER stress and AFTER pms. How feasible is it to try these things and to think these things DURING everything? We'll see.
Reference:
Chu, R. J of RTOTW. http://outofdableu.blogspot.com. Published March 18, 2006.
Thursday 16 March 2006
in SoCal on Friday March 24th?
Are you in SoCal next friday?
Do you want to have dinner with me before fellowship?
Let me know. I'd love to catch up.
Do you want to have dinner with me before fellowship?
Let me know. I'd love to catch up.
Friday 10 March 2006
Breakaway
So in an attempt for self improvement and to do something new, I decided to perform for an AIDS Benefit (proceeds going towards a hospital and medications for HIV/AIDS in Nigeria) concert last Friday. I decided to sing and play Kelly Clarkson's "Breakaway" and managed to convince David to be mr. percussion with the egg (and for moral support).
Why did I do this?
1) It's for a good cause.
2) A bunch of people from fellowship were doing it.
3) I've never done this before in front of so many people that were friends and strangers.
4) Figured this would be a stretching experience.
5) It would improve my guitar skillz.
"I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly..."
I've never been so nervous in my entire life. I totally messed up the chorus a couple times, the 2nd verse, the bridge and the last chorus. I was off key a lot, played the wrong chord (if you're playing from memory and you think you know it well, practice more 'cause when you're on stage, you'll forget it all). But what was so encouraging was all those cheers coming from classmates and friends. I even heard an "I LOVE YOU ROZ!!" (thanks Lena. :D).
It's one of those things that I'm not sure I'll do again, but it was a good experience. Really stretches you, especially if you have a fear of being in front of large groups of people.
Why did I do this?
1) It's for a good cause.
2) A bunch of people from fellowship were doing it.
3) I've never done this before in front of so many people that were friends and strangers.
4) Figured this would be a stretching experience.
5) It would improve my guitar skillz.
"I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly..."
I've never been so nervous in my entire life. I totally messed up the chorus a couple times, the 2nd verse, the bridge and the last chorus. I was off key a lot, played the wrong chord (if you're playing from memory and you think you know it well, practice more 'cause when you're on stage, you'll forget it all). But what was so encouraging was all those cheers coming from classmates and friends. I even heard an "I LOVE YOU ROZ!!" (thanks Lena. :D).
It's one of those things that I'm not sure I'll do again, but it was a good experience. Really stretches you, especially if you have a fear of being in front of large groups of people.
Wednesday 8 March 2006
Amenorrhea?
1) Have you ever wondered who invented the concept of the quarter system? It totally sucks!
2) I can't wait until spring break. The Cost of Discipleship, scrapbooking, 12 sleep, shopping, mom, dad, here I come!!
3) The weather has been so interesting. It's been... raining hard at night and in the morning, it's almost clear skies. The sun shines, the birds chirp, it almost seems like the perfect day. Oh, wait, no it's not, because there are finals coming up.
4) Whoever said first year was going to be cake. Shoot, it's totally NOT cake. (say the last sentence like Chandler would say it). It's so far from being cake, it's like...the opposite of cake.
5) Sleeping...is that idea culture bound? I value sleep a lot. Do I value it too much? Is it psychological that I think sleep is a cure-all?
6) How useful would it be to take blood samples every day during a menstrual cycle say if you have irregular cycles? Would it be useful? How expensive would it be?
7) Instead of giving up something for Lent, I've decided to take up journalling again. Empty pages waiting to be filled with deep reflective thoughts like...
8)...going to the bathroom is one of those things where I wish I didn't have to do 'cause it's 5 minutes right there of study time. Of course you can't take books into the bathroom 'cause who knows who or what's been on that floor in the library... talk about cesspool of germies.
9) I've regressed back to old patterns of behavior and thought that are selfish and unhealthy. Think of things worth thinking about.
2) I can't wait until spring break. The Cost of Discipleship, scrapbooking, 12 sleep, shopping, mom, dad, here I come!!
3) The weather has been so interesting. It's been... raining hard at night and in the morning, it's almost clear skies. The sun shines, the birds chirp, it almost seems like the perfect day. Oh, wait, no it's not, because there are finals coming up.
4) Whoever said first year was going to be cake. Shoot, it's totally NOT cake. (say the last sentence like Chandler would say it). It's so far from being cake, it's like...the opposite of cake.
5) Sleeping...is that idea culture bound? I value sleep a lot. Do I value it too much? Is it psychological that I think sleep is a cure-all?
6) How useful would it be to take blood samples every day during a menstrual cycle say if you have irregular cycles? Would it be useful? How expensive would it be?
7) Instead of giving up something for Lent, I've decided to take up journalling again. Empty pages waiting to be filled with deep reflective thoughts like...
8)...going to the bathroom is one of those things where I wish I didn't have to do 'cause it's 5 minutes right there of study time. Of course you can't take books into the bathroom 'cause who knows who or what's been on that floor in the library... talk about cesspool of germies.
9) I've regressed back to old patterns of behavior and thought that are selfish and unhealthy. Think of things worth thinking about.
Saturday 4 March 2006
PICTURE POST!!!!!
This is at Fisherman's Warf. for $3 you can find out your bread personality, get unlimited samplings of their tasty sourdough and foccacias and different dressings.
this is one of the pictures that didn't turn out blurry. This is Karen, one of my pledge bros.
this is Grace, Winnie, Tracy and Roz at the Med School Prom, the one you'll actually remember.
Happy Birthday, Christina! :)
put 3 sonrise girls together and it's FUN FUN FUN!!!
this is a recent cheesecake endeavor. I still have cracks in it, but I got some ideas for preventing crackage. So hopefully it'll turn out.
Friday 3 March 2006
Breakaway
So i'm performing (singing/guitar) Kelly Clarkson's "Breakaway" for a show that started about 10 minutes ago.
NERVOUS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
C, G, Am, F, C, G, Am, G, F..... is the chorus. Hopefully it'll be there still when I'm up.
NERVOUS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
C, G, Am, F, C, G, Am, G, F..... is the chorus. Hopefully it'll be there still when I'm up.
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