All the Colors of Emotion

1) Gosh, just because you drive a Mercedes and you're talking on your cell phone doesn't give you the right of way.
2) I totally bombed one of my finals. What's disappointing is that I thought I was going to do well in this class. Oh well, that teaches me to go to class. I need to move on from this. It's bothering me way to much.
3) I love how it's so cold that my lips are numb. The sharp cold makes everything else even sharper, like that line separating the sky and the ocean.
4) It's finals time and the monster has awoken. But this time a little more violently than usual and in other areas of my thoughts and behaviors. I need it to go away, it's too debilitating.
5) This quarter has been tough. I was thinking about taking the quarter off. Seriously.... Seriously! But I didn't and it's almost over. In September I said this quarter would be a test. Well, just one more day and we'll see how I did.
6) Excitement: Taiwan, Boston, Tahoe (x3),(maybe Yosemite), NYC, Big Red all in the next 8 months. :)
7) I need to let the grades go.

Walt Disney Concert Hall

Grace

The sky is grey and the light is far
The sea is a rage within my heart
I turn my sight to the crashing waves
I cry in the night just to be saved

I need eyes to be my guide
I need a voice that’s louder than mine
I need hope I need You
Cause I can’t do this alone

Grace I call Your name
Oh won’t Your smile fall over me
I’m cracked and dry on hands and knees
Oh sweet grace rain down on me I need You grace

I pray for dawn a new day to live
I pray for mercy only Jesus gives
Though darkness falls and a million cry
I believe over all there’s a greater light shining for us

Come down and save me

-Phil Wickham

Duets

John Legend went to UPenn!

I want to hear a collaboration between Alicia Keyes and John Legend. They're both have soul, they both play the piano and they're both beautiful people. Both of them have amazing lyrics and amazing songs.


My 2 very dear advisees, Cathy and Yenni. It's weird, they're both a year older than me, but I'm their advisor. But I love them. :)


Celebrated birthdays with Karen and Winnie at BOSS. It was a lot of fun except for some sleazballs who don't know what the cold shoulder means.

Whilst taking a study break, I went book shopping:
Life of Pi
Kite Runner
Anna Karenina

Besides Confessions these are the books I'll be reading to, in and from Asia in December.

Right now...88% of my family is in LA. My, oh, my I want to be there.

I can't wait.

Loneliness

Happy feet is opened today.

I should be happy. ecstatic.

But the thing is... I'm not.

Today I've been on the verge of tears. Gosh, I even got teary during an episode of scrubs.

You can be in a room full of people and feel completely lonely. You can be by yourself with no sound and have the presence of God with you.

I've been feeling so lonely lately.

At first I thought it was because I didn't have a boy. I always thought that being exclusive with a man would take away all my loneliness. That his complete attention, the fact that he felt like the luckiest person in the world just being with me would be the answer to the things I've been feeling for such a long time.

I see couples and I'm so jealous of their happiness and companionship.

Why is this such a big deal for me? Why is my happiness, security and identity based on one human being? But I've made so many mistakes and I keep wondering if I've thrown away people who I felt are really important to me.

mm...denial, anger, bargaining, depression, acceptance.

The quarter's almost over. I can't wait.

Happy Feet!!!!

Good Hair Day

Yesterday, I took a shower at around 9:00pm and combed my hair. I went to sleep, got up this morning and brushed it in 2 seconds before I go to class and I get 5 compliments about how cute my hair looks.

Maybe I should do nothing with my hair every day. Maybe every day I'll have a good hair day.

In other news, it feels so good to be home. I haven't felt this good being home in a long time.

But I watched my first full episode of Grey's Anatomy...I actually like Scrubs better, so no more Meredith choosing McDreamy and who knows who's going to find out about Burk's injury, except maybe for George. The people on the show are too attractive to be real.

Anti-Stalking

Xanga has included an anti-stalking component to their website.

interesting...

the xanga community has just upped the challenge of stalking.