Thursday 30 June 2005
Wednesday 29 June 2005
Tuesday 28 June 2005
Consumer Culture
The rest of the summer is going to be really busy. Those close to me know that idleness isn't good for roz. I find myself wistful, I get lost in my thoughts and I go shopping.
I suppose it's a good thing to be idle. I've moved up from a size 0 to a size 2. Maybe I'll be back up to a size 4 or 6 in the next 6 mo.
I've decided what I want to wear for my wedding. No, I'm not getting married. That can't be farther on the horizon. But I've decided. My hair lightly waved with white ribbon wrapped around grecian style. The veil somehow attached gracefully, I haven't thought about it much. Wedding dress similar to reese witherspoon (haahaa, reese with her spoon, haahaahaa), with a strapless gown with delicate georgette/sheer shoulder straps almost like cap sleeves. An ivory instead of pure white (i'm dark and it fits my skin tone. plus I don't want my teeth to look yellow as a stark contrast to my dress). A-line skirt with a shorter train. Not satin. Perhaps silk so that it flows and shimmers. Not too full of a skirt, but slightly A-line, not sheathed. Maybe some ribbon embellishment (grecian style again) low around the waist joining in the bustle. 1.5-2in heels, a pair of shoes that I'd get on sale, something I'd be able to wear over again. Makeup, natural but accentuating the eyes more. Hair, less styling the better. I wouldn't want anyone to get their hand stuck in some styling goo in my hair. And this paragraph is more detailed than expected. Probably freaked some of the male species out, but whatever. I'm a girl, I think about these things, get over it.
I've always wanted to live in a house with hardwood floors and bay windows. There's a lot of those in San Francisco. goodie.
I'm really excited for the next 2 months. So many new memories to be made, so many opportunities to serve the God that has taken care of me. SO MANY PICTURES!!!!
July 1-Aug 12 Whirlwind trip overseas
Aug 14-19 YSC
Aug 23-30 Boston
Sept 15 The start of my career, the end of my social life.
You have questions about the site? Sometimes it's more than meets the eye. Take a closer look, click on the pictures, don't trust your first impression.
The rest of the summer is going to be really busy. Those close to me know that idleness isn't good for roz. I find myself wistful, I get lost in my thoughts and I go shopping.
I suppose it's a good thing to be idle. I've moved up from a size 0 to a size 2. Maybe I'll be back up to a size 4 or 6 in the next 6 mo.
I've decided what I want to wear for my wedding. No, I'm not getting married. That can't be farther on the horizon. But I've decided. My hair lightly waved with white ribbon wrapped around grecian style. The veil somehow attached gracefully, I haven't thought about it much. Wedding dress similar to reese witherspoon (haahaa, reese with her spoon, haahaahaa), with a strapless gown with delicate georgette/sheer shoulder straps almost like cap sleeves. An ivory instead of pure white (i'm dark and it fits my skin tone. plus I don't want my teeth to look yellow as a stark contrast to my dress). A-line skirt with a shorter train. Not satin. Perhaps silk so that it flows and shimmers. Not too full of a skirt, but slightly A-line, not sheathed. Maybe some ribbon embellishment (grecian style again) low around the waist joining in the bustle. 1.5-2in heels, a pair of shoes that I'd get on sale, something I'd be able to wear over again. Makeup, natural but accentuating the eyes more. Hair, less styling the better. I wouldn't want anyone to get their hand stuck in some styling goo in my hair. And this paragraph is more detailed than expected. Probably freaked some of the male species out, but whatever. I'm a girl, I think about these things, get over it.
I've always wanted to live in a house with hardwood floors and bay windows. There's a lot of those in San Francisco. goodie.
I'm really excited for the next 2 months. So many new memories to be made, so many opportunities to serve the God that has taken care of me. SO MANY PICTURES!!!!
July 1-Aug 12 Whirlwind trip overseas
Aug 14-19 YSC
Aug 23-30 Boston
Sept 15 The start of my career, the end of my social life.
You have questions about the site? Sometimes it's more than meets the eye. Take a closer look, click on the pictures, don't trust your first impression.
Monday 27 June 2005
This is Sarah.
Notice the guy in the back, with the new euro glasses. That's Jay, those are his new glasses.
One of the reasons why I LOVE SoCal.
Third Street Promenade. Still bustling with activity on Saturday Night. We saw a monkey, a guy trying to get out of a straight jacket, the chinese dude from Kill Bill vol. 2 playing a wooden flute and an awesome singer who sang "Tears in Heaven"
DISC Temperments
CS
What's that mean?
I'm compliant, correct
I'm stable, steady
Greatest Fears:
Rejection, loss of security
Weaknesses: Resists change, gets bogged down with details, needs clear boundaries for actions/relationships, holds a grudge; sensitive to criticism.
What's your temperament?
Spiritual Gifts
Showing Mercy
Purpose of gift: wise insight to care for those in need, not trying to save or rescue people.
Describing word: Caring.
What's your spiritual gift?
CS
What's that mean?
I'm compliant, correct
I'm stable, steady
Greatest Fears:
Rejection, loss of security
Weaknesses: Resists change, gets bogged down with details, needs clear boundaries for actions/relationships, holds a grudge; sensitive to criticism.
What's your temperament?
Spiritual Gifts
Showing Mercy
Purpose of gift: wise insight to care for those in need, not trying to save or rescue people.
Describing word: Caring.
What's your spiritual gift?
Saturday 25 June 2005
Tuesday 21 June 2005
The Process
"In this you greatly rejoice, even though now for a little while, if necessary, you have been distressed by various trials, that the proof of your faith being more precious than gold which is perishable even though tested by fire, may be found to result in praise and glory and honor at the revelation of Jesus Christ; and though you have not seen Him, you love Him, and though you do not see Him now, but believe in Him, you greatly rejoice with joy inexpressible and full of glory, obtaining as the outcome of your faith the salvation of your souls." 1 Peter 1:6-9
"Consider it all joy, my brethren, when you encounter various trials, knowing that the testing of your faith produces endurance. And let endurance have its perfect result, that you may be perfect and complete, lackign in nothing." James 1:2-4
"And so, as those who have been chosen of God, holy and beloved, put on a heart of compassion, kindness, humility, gentleness and patience; bearing with one another and forgiving each other, whoever has a complaint against anyone; just as the Lord forgave you, so also should do." Colossians 3:12-13
"I have learned the secret of being filled and going hungry, both of having abundance and suffering need. I can do all things through Him who strengthens me. Nevertheless, you have done will to share with me and my affliction." Philippians 4:12-14
"Therefore we do not lose heart, but though our outer man is decaying, yet our inner man is being renewed day by day. For momentary, light affliction is producing for us an eternal weight of glory far being all comparison, while we look not at the things which are seen, but at the things which are not seen; for the things which are seen are temporal, but the things which are not seen are eterna." 2 Corinthians 4:16-18
No one asks to go through hard times. A voice in my head says, "Too bad, life is unfair, deal with it." Another voice in my head says, "You should just curl up with a good bottle of pills" And another voice utters these verses above. We don't ask for hard times, but these are the things, that refine, strengthen and put what meager lives we have into perspective. God has a way of stripping what idols we have and leaving us naked with our deepest fears only to rebuild what he created. Get rid of the flaws, and it shines all the more reflecting the light that's shone on it. Choose whatever cliche you want: diamond, jar of clay, sharpened arrow, product of a blacksmith, refined gold, it's all the same. A process that takes time. Something we have no control over, which ultimately leads to submission (even if kicking, screaming and crying occurs first). Greatly rejoice with joy inexpressible
"In this you greatly rejoice, even though now for a little while, if necessary, you have been distressed by various trials, that the proof of your faith being more precious than gold which is perishable even though tested by fire, may be found to result in praise and glory and honor at the revelation of Jesus Christ; and though you have not seen Him, you love Him, and though you do not see Him now, but believe in Him, you greatly rejoice with joy inexpressible and full of glory, obtaining as the outcome of your faith the salvation of your souls." 1 Peter 1:6-9
"Consider it all joy, my brethren, when you encounter various trials, knowing that the testing of your faith produces endurance. And let endurance have its perfect result, that you may be perfect and complete, lackign in nothing." James 1:2-4
"And so, as those who have been chosen of God, holy and beloved, put on a heart of compassion, kindness, humility, gentleness and patience; bearing with one another and forgiving each other, whoever has a complaint against anyone; just as the Lord forgave you, so also should do." Colossians 3:12-13
"I have learned the secret of being filled and going hungry, both of having abundance and suffering need. I can do all things through Him who strengthens me. Nevertheless, you have done will to share with me and my affliction." Philippians 4:12-14
"Therefore we do not lose heart, but though our outer man is decaying, yet our inner man is being renewed day by day. For momentary, light affliction is producing for us an eternal weight of glory far being all comparison, while we look not at the things which are seen, but at the things which are not seen; for the things which are seen are temporal, but the things which are not seen are eterna." 2 Corinthians 4:16-18
No one asks to go through hard times. A voice in my head says, "Too bad, life is unfair, deal with it." Another voice in my head says, "You should just curl up with a good bottle of pills" And another voice utters these verses above. We don't ask for hard times, but these are the things, that refine, strengthen and put what meager lives we have into perspective. God has a way of stripping what idols we have and leaving us naked with our deepest fears only to rebuild what he created. Get rid of the flaws, and it shines all the more reflecting the light that's shone on it. Choose whatever cliche you want: diamond, jar of clay, sharpened arrow, product of a blacksmith, refined gold, it's all the same. A process that takes time. Something we have no control over, which ultimately leads to submission (even if kicking, screaming and crying occurs first). Greatly rejoice with joy inexpressible
Sunday 19 June 2005
These are the parents. And the '85 Honda Accord.
My sister and I never called my dad "daddy." It was either "bah-bee" or "dad." He has a lot of other titles, too like elder, Mr. Chu, Uncle Sam, Aerospace Engineer. The past 30 years, his life has revolved around his wife and children. My dad's one of those people who will order too much at a restaurant if he's treating someone because he wants everyone to eat well and put his family up in first class because he can. Here's a story about my dad that's worth telling:
When I was at least 2, I'd leave my socks everywhere. It's a little annoying and forunately i've broken that habit of leaving socks everywhere. It got to the point where my dad got mad. It was frustrating and downright improper to have the "littler one" leave her socks everywhere. I remember standing at the archway that leads from the kitchen to the formal dining room. I'm standing in the kitchen and my dad is squatting on the marble. He has a ruler in his hand. He says to me in mandarin, "Roz, you can't leave your socks everywhere, its messy. You deserve to be disciplined." I'm never going to forget what he does next. He says, "I'm not going to hit you. I'm going to hit myself." And he slaps himself in the palm really hard with the ruler multiple times. At this point I'm crying and I never really understood why my dad did that until I got older. I love my dad, I love my family. They will always be the most important to me even though sometimes it may not seem like it. It's these actions, these stories about my dad that show the love of Christ and I am so thankful to be born in this family and blessed with such a father.
Happy Father's Day
Simple Pleasures
reading Real Simple in a lawn chair in the sun, actually sitting in a lawn.
Finding out that speakers don't need to be plugged in for them to work.
Playing/singing worship songs uninhibited by myself.
Surprise birthday parties. (happy birthday, lydia :D)
Trying to think of a name for a new computer. I'm thinking...Basil. mm.. basil.
When a shopper actually buys something from the yard sale(esp. if it's ugly).
Waking up totally rested and totally groggy after a nap.
Taking a picture of the parental units, lounging and perfectly content.
A negative TB test.
Listening to music, while sleeping. I love that.
reading Real Simple in a lawn chair in the sun, actually sitting in a lawn.
Finding out that speakers don't need to be plugged in for them to work.
Playing/singing worship songs uninhibited by myself.
Surprise birthday parties. (happy birthday, lydia :D)
Trying to think of a name for a new computer. I'm thinking...Basil. mm.. basil.
When a shopper actually buys something from the yard sale(esp. if it's ugly).
Waking up totally rested and totally groggy after a nap.
Taking a picture of the parental units, lounging and perfectly content.
A negative TB test.
Listening to music, while sleeping. I love that.
Thursday 16 June 2005
Tuesday 14 June 2005
Currently Reading: Crime and Punishment by Fyodor Dostoevsky
Current Location: VLSB Library computing center
Current Weather: BEAUTIFUL!!!! Blue sky makes me so happy. I heard it was raining last week. Sorry guys.
Current Mood: Nostalgia.
I think I'm going to make it a point to sleep early and wake up early. Yesterday night I slept at 10:45 and woke up at around 7:15 this morning. It felt good. Maybe because I woke up to the sun shining in my face and it totally set my circadian rhythm. But its a good habit to get into I suppose. Someone told me that people our age get the most rest from 11pm-2am. Maybe that's it. Who knows.
Transparency
I guess you could say my social ineptitude (if that's even a word) has stunted the breadth and depth of self disclosure to the people around me. I feel as though writing for the purpose of people reading is so much easier and I can express myself without stuttering or getting frustrated at myself for saying something stupid or not expressing myself correctly. In writing, there's some (pause for 15 sec) editing and thinking where I can think of the perfect word of phrase and I don't have to worry about wasting someone else's time.
I feel like when I call people or IM people, they're usually busy and expect me to have a specific agenda, but sometimes its just to talk and I don't really know how to express that so I make up an agenda on the spot. Most of my phone conversations last on average 5 minutes, not usually enough time to get to the meaty stuff.
There are some situations where I can be alone and feel comfortable. Like eating. I'm totally comfortable with eating by myself. Someone commented on that a couple years back and now that its passed, I can still comfortably eat by myself. I can't be alone at night. It's a fear thing. I used to be afraid of the dark. Now, it's a fear of not being safe. It was nice to have someone there, even if that person leaves after I fall asleep. I dunno why.
But, its always nice to have someone around. Someone that you don't mind being stupid/crazy/messy/unkept around, and someone you don't have to impress. It's nice to share the stupid things and the mundane things where you're in a place where you're totally comfortable with yourself and the other person (even though you have a hard time maintaining eye contact). It's nice to celebrate the small victories with another person like "Guess what! I found the PERFECT apartment today!" Or "DUDE, I got a pair of pants for 7 bucks." Stuff like that. Everyone should have someone.
Current Location: VLSB Library computing center
Current Weather: BEAUTIFUL!!!! Blue sky makes me so happy. I heard it was raining last week. Sorry guys.
Current Mood: Nostalgia.
I think I'm going to make it a point to sleep early and wake up early. Yesterday night I slept at 10:45 and woke up at around 7:15 this morning. It felt good. Maybe because I woke up to the sun shining in my face and it totally set my circadian rhythm. But its a good habit to get into I suppose. Someone told me that people our age get the most rest from 11pm-2am. Maybe that's it. Who knows.
Transparency
I guess you could say my social ineptitude (if that's even a word) has stunted the breadth and depth of self disclosure to the people around me. I feel as though writing for the purpose of people reading is so much easier and I can express myself without stuttering or getting frustrated at myself for saying something stupid or not expressing myself correctly. In writing, there's some (pause for 15 sec) editing and thinking where I can think of the perfect word of phrase and I don't have to worry about wasting someone else's time.
I feel like when I call people or IM people, they're usually busy and expect me to have a specific agenda, but sometimes its just to talk and I don't really know how to express that so I make up an agenda on the spot. Most of my phone conversations last on average 5 minutes, not usually enough time to get to the meaty stuff.
There are some situations where I can be alone and feel comfortable. Like eating. I'm totally comfortable with eating by myself. Someone commented on that a couple years back and now that its passed, I can still comfortably eat by myself. I can't be alone at night. It's a fear thing. I used to be afraid of the dark. Now, it's a fear of not being safe. It was nice to have someone there, even if that person leaves after I fall asleep. I dunno why.
But, its always nice to have someone around. Someone that you don't mind being stupid/crazy/messy/unkept around, and someone you don't have to impress. It's nice to share the stupid things and the mundane things where you're in a place where you're totally comfortable with yourself and the other person (even though you have a hard time maintaining eye contact). It's nice to celebrate the small victories with another person like "Guess what! I found the PERFECT apartment today!" Or "DUDE, I got a pair of pants for 7 bucks." Stuff like that. Everyone should have someone.
Saturday 11 June 2005
Thursday 9 June 2005
Finished Oryx and Crake. Very Orwellian. If you want to borrow it, I'll be happy to lend it out.
Currently reading A Grief Observed by C.S. Lewis.
One thing that struck me... throughout the whole ordeal of his wife's death, he never EVER doubted God. He doubted people's abilities to console him and his own finite understanding of life and death, but he never EVER doubted God. That's something to strive for.
Currently reading A Grief Observed by C.S. Lewis.
One thing that struck me... throughout the whole ordeal of his wife's death, he never EVER doubted God. He doubted people's abilities to console him and his own finite understanding of life and death, but he never EVER doubted God. That's something to strive for.
Monday 6 June 2005
Friday 3 June 2005
Currently Reading: Oryx and Crake - Margaret Atwood
Wow, bio majors should read this. Margaret Atwood is an amazing story teller who knows her genetic engineering.
On another note, I saw this... its interesting.
“People who flit from relationships to relationship as their infatuations lead them aren’t really happy; they’re desperate – and they’ll never find what they’re looking for as they allow their desperation to bury potential life partners. There is no perfect “soul mate.” … There will be only sinner after sinner after sinner. But when you learn to accept and love one particular sinner over several decades, you can slowly build an alliance and intimacy that nothing else can match.” -Gary Thomas,
Devotions for a Sacred Marriage
How unconditional can you be when you're in a relationship?
And jumping on the Al Mohler Bandwagon (::cough:: mr. jeff)
this was addressed to the men: The Marks of Manhood
Wow, bio majors should read this. Margaret Atwood is an amazing story teller who knows her genetic engineering.
On another note, I saw this... its interesting.
“People who flit from relationships to relationship as their infatuations lead them aren’t really happy; they’re desperate – and they’ll never find what they’re looking for as they allow their desperation to bury potential life partners. There is no perfect “soul mate.” … There will be only sinner after sinner after sinner. But when you learn to accept and love one particular sinner over several decades, you can slowly build an alliance and intimacy that nothing else can match.” -Gary Thomas,
Devotions for a Sacred Marriage
How unconditional can you be when you're in a relationship?
And jumping on the Al Mohler Bandwagon (::cough:: mr. jeff)
this was addressed to the men: The Marks of Manhood
Thursday 2 June 2005
Roz's List of Love Songs
Please excuse the cheese and corn
1) True - Ryan Cabrera
2) Come What May - Ewan McGregor, Nicole Kidman
3) She Will Be Loved - Maroon 5
4) The Reason - Hoobastank
5) Too Good To Be True - Lauryn Hill
6) Right Here Waiting - Monica (Richard Marx original)
7) Everything I Do, I Do It For You - Bryan Adams
8) Truly, Madly, Deeply - Savage Garden
9) I Do (Cherish You) - 98 Degrees
10) This I Promise You - N'Sync
11) I Need You Tonight - Backstreet Boys
12) Wherever You Will Go - The Calling
13) That's How You Like It - Beyonce
14) Head Over Feet - Alanis Morisette
Definitely not an exhaustive list, but yeah...
I'm not usually one to be sappy, but I love these songs. They're the sappiest, sappy love songs, but somehow, they're so good. I could listen to these almost all day. almost.
Please excuse the cheese and corn
1) True - Ryan Cabrera
2) Come What May - Ewan McGregor, Nicole Kidman
3) She Will Be Loved - Maroon 5
4) The Reason - Hoobastank
5) Too Good To Be True - Lauryn Hill
6) Right Here Waiting - Monica (Richard Marx original)
7) Everything I Do, I Do It For You - Bryan Adams
8) Truly, Madly, Deeply - Savage Garden
9) I Do (Cherish You) - 98 Degrees
10) This I Promise You - N'Sync
11) I Need You Tonight - Backstreet Boys
12) Wherever You Will Go - The Calling
13) That's How You Like It - Beyonce
14) Head Over Feet - Alanis Morisette
Definitely not an exhaustive list, but yeah...
I'm not usually one to be sappy, but I love these songs. They're the sappiest, sappy love songs, but somehow, they're so good. I could listen to these almost all day. almost.
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