Wednesday 30 January 2002

Prayer Request: Being Able to get into a math discussion I can actually attend.
Here's the situation: I scheduled math before I scheduled chem so I made it so that my chem lab on thursday mornings conflicts with my math discussion on thursday's also. I want to switch out of that math discussion because well... i don't wanna miss it you know what I mean? So I need to get into section 106 or 107 or 113. So could you please pray for me? Thanks. God is Good all the time and I just have to wait on Him... Things will work out.
Blog, whoever came up with the word "Blog" this is like the public portion of my journal. online journal if you will.. of my not so private thoughts, well most of them at least.
Today I was thinking about the purpose of a scrapbook. I have one for my trip to Europe, my childhood and in the process of making one for my vacation to Malaysia. On one hand, it's a collection of souveneirs (free usually) and memories that you wanna keep forever. On another hand it's just trash that you're not willing to throw away and so you spend money to buy a book to glue all of this stuff in so it doesn't look as much like trash.
Come to think of it, most of my fondest memories are not captured in a scrapbook, but engrained, burned into my brain like i have cd burner in my brain and my brain is just one big cd.. like infinity gigs of hard drive space.
Another thing.. this is how much God loves me: 8. It might look like an 8 but if you tip it over like you would cowtip, then it's an infinity sign. Now that's something that you can't find on your character map. It should be there, though 'cause every other character in the world is on the character map. Maybe it is on there. If anyone finds it, tell me because inifinity is such an interesting concept to inject into a mere symbol.

Tuesday 29 January 2002

herbal essences hair dye smells really good.

Monday 28 January 2002

Stir In Me, a fire that the world cannot explain
I come to worship You
Stir in me, a passion that my heart cannot contain
I come to worship You
Hold me, break me, mold me and make me more and more like you
As i come to worship you
to love you, fear you, draw ever near you as I worship you
I come to worship you, oh Lord.
:) This song is the song of the week. It's been in my head since like last week and yeah, it's just something that i've been yearning for. A fire that the world cannot explain, a passion that my heart cannot contain. And it's i dunno, you know that you need to work on something or something and a song totally expresses what you're thinking and feeling? You know?
and a disclaimer: i'm sorry for not being specific on the "cycles" thing for my malaysia. I was talking about sleep cycles and other cycles.. well that's pretty general haahaa ok anyway nuff about the cycles thing. Jet lag is the worst. for like 2 weeks i would be tired early and wake up wide away at 3 in the morning and not be able to sleep for like an hour.

The laundry thing is fun. you see so many people on your floor and building and even new people and it's such a small room and since it's cold outside the laundry room is nice and warm. and looking at people's clothing i know it's a bit superficial, but you can tell a lot about people from their clothes, ya know? YA KNOW?!!?

Sunday 27 January 2002

it kinda sucks... i just posted something and the browser froze or something.. SUCKS to that. :P and i was being all transparent.
in short:
Retrat was good. I want a guitar for my birthday or i can just get one. 'cause guitar and worship songs are fun. Maybe God has gifted me in music. i'm prideful. been thinking a lot about the idea: "the more godly you are the more you realize your sin"

Friday 25 January 2002

how prideful i am. i was just thinhking.. what is the reason for so much pride? I couldn't take pride in my intellect 'cause just talk to me in person. there's no real coherence in my words unless you give me a couple minutes to formulate a sentence. i shouldn't take pride in how my spritual walk with Jesus is going because i'm never really satisfied with it. Why do i believe i am better than anyone else? "Humble thyself in the sigh of the LORD" and i realized only during the good times in this blog i Praise God. It should be everyday i praise God and thank him for the millions of blessings in my life.

Thursday 24 January 2002

I'm in chem 1b. It's just my stinkin telebears doesn't say. But that's ok. I checked out a locker and initialed the safety stuff. Everything's gonna be ok. Man... worry for nothing pray for everything dude. :) And... change of transcript.
Today was a good day. God is good, and God does good things through times of frustration and if you hound the prof long enough he'll let you in the class. :-D
Going to retreat tomorrow, looking forward to it. :)

Wednesday 23 January 2002

NUMBER 4 ON THE CHEM 1B THURSDAY LAB WAITING LIST!! WHOOHOO!!!! PRAISE THE LORD!!!

Tuesday 22 January 2002

::pulling hair out::
Chem and math are nuisances. :(

Monday 21 January 2002

There are certain things at home but not in a dorm
Your mother calling it's dinner time.
Your own room
A stereo in your own room you can play as loud as you want
A nightstand about the height of your mattress so you can press the snooze button without really getting up or even moving your arm that much for that matter.
Going downstairs and having your feet touch marble floor and listening to the sizzle of a home cooked meal.
Seeing your gradeschool artwork hanging up around the house.
bumming on the old brown couch in front of the tv for hours on end in your pajamas
crosstitching.

You can probably tell i'm home sick. It's weird, i come back on friday and today, monday is the first day i feel homesick. And i'm really worried about my math and chem classes, too. I need to change a math discussion section and i'm 5 on the waiting list for chem 1b. please, give me some assurance or somethin.. i dunno.. maybe i just gotta LET GO. had worship practice for retreat.. got to play the bongos for the first time ever today, it's fun. :)

Sunday 20 January 2002

hi. Back at berkeley. Just went through an odyssey or upgrading to windows xp.. now my computer looks nice. :) praying really hard for chemistry 1b and to get into a later discussion section for math 1b. :( sigh.

Sunday 6 January 2002

yeah.. my cycles are still off... :(
very satisfied with my gpa. praise the LORD. :)
got my malaysia pics back.. beautiful pic of a dragonfly.. a green dragon fly on a lotus flower with a waterfall in the background.. beautiful. and a beautiful pic of mount fuji in the sunset from the plane.. man.. it's beautiful.
Just got back from retreat, it was very beneficial because it make a lot of things clear in my life, and it got me on a start for next semester, what ministries or whatever God is calling me to do. and i got to know people in the fellowship, which was what i wanted to do.. and yeah.. last night.. we fellowshiped, and talked about dating and relationships, which seems to be a very............. popular subject, but i''m happy with my singleness, for now. Yeah, God is calling me to be single this year. anyway, that's it for now.

Wednesday 2 January 2002

Ok.. Part II of the malaysia.. thing.
To be graphic, my cycles are totally off. Nature calls me an hour after every meal and she doesn't stop until i answer and it sucks because she's really mean and make me feel bleh. :( so anyway, guess what i saw, PENGUINS!! YES YES YES. MY FAVORITE ANIMAL IN THE WHOLE WIDE WORLD. HAAHAAHAHAAHAAHAHAA. THey are SO AMAZINGLY CUTE. this is the FIRST EVER time i saw PENGUINS in my whole entire LIFE. They're SO AMAZINGLY CUTE. ( I know i'm being repetetive, but it's for EMPHASIS) Yeah they were so cute. Like there were 2 females incubating behind a glass case thingy and outside there were a couple penguins too. I can't tell if they were male or not, but like they were just out there watching the 2 femals and we thought. it would have been SOSOSOSOSO cute if those were their mates because penguins mate for life. Isn't that cute? And when they waddle i was like.. awww. i just wanna take one home. and like when they swim.. they just fall into the water and just swim.. they look like they're flying and they're so graceful too.. i kno i know.. penguins, graceful? but they ARE they ARE!! And it's so cute, when they're about to get fed.. all of them just go to the entrance and line up almost and wait there.. and the just follow the guy wherever he goes and it does look like a parage..that's why the exhibit is called penguin parade, get it? GET IT?!! haahaa.. and like he pets them and picks them up and talks to them... man. they're so cute. yeah ok.. that was the highlight of my trip.
BEHOLD! I HAVE RETURNED with TREASURES from AFAR!
haahaa, just kidding. I have some stuff, but it's all knockoff cheap stuff. :P Anyway, malaysia/singapore was really fun, besides the screaming baby on the plane and the chicken farm infested with flies, i had a blast. The weather was great, hot and humid just the remedy for bay area rain. lets see... we stayed in singapore for a couple nights at the beginning and end 'cause we flew into changi airport.. that's kind of a funny name.. CHANGI.. haahaa. anyway malaysia and singapore are like san diego and tijuana if you know what i mean. singapore is clean and everything and malaysia is... well.. the parallel to tijuana, except kuala lumpur the capital. and you don't pronouce the first word like the animal. you say it more like Kwala loompoor. and that place is cool. the two towers where entrapment was filmed is there. and there's a MALL right there. and a garden and park and swimming pool. fun fun fun. Oh.. and the food.. my goodness i'd fly back just to eat the food.. SO GOOD. youcan't beat the chinese food there.. well maybe china, but it's still really really good. I went to my cousin, Calvin's wedding which by the way was very nice. so yeah.. the nightmarket in KL chinatown.. very nice. you can haggle as low as possible and it's even better 'cause 3 malay ringetts are worth a dollar american money and cheap imitation everything. teehee. Oh what was really disturbing, they had osama bin laden/gw bush/9-11 tshirts.. isnt' that disturbing? i dunno. and we saw some anti american stuff on a bus stop thing.. sort of like the graffiti we see here. anyway... this is a lot for one blog. another will follow later!