Catalyst

Sometimes I ask myself, how come I didn't discover this sooner?
It usually applies to positive things like a fantastic study venue, a good hole-in-the-wall restaurant or even better...a good group of friends.
After a year of pharmacy school, we needed the perfect catalyst to bring us all together. It was good for all of us. Good in different ways, but it's something that I'm not about to let go of. I love you guys. Hope we can hang out soon. :)

In other news, my psuedo Lent abandonment is studying at places where it costs money to purchase a caffeinated beverage. Why is it pseudo? 'cause there's no real spiritual reason why I've given up studying at cafes, only financial. It just happens to coincide with the Lenten season. so spiritual, i know. So i've been studying at home and in the library. Saves a LOT of money. For a student on loans, that helps.

This next weekend will be perfect to go to the snow. I went last weekend and the powder was thigh deep in some areas but driving down was a bear. Snow, sleet, wind and going at an average of 3mph. Not fun when you're ischemic in the uterus. But since the weather's been good, there'll be a break in the blizzarding and Tahoe will be perfect for those of you seeking excitement on pillows of white powder. Falling couldn't be more fun.

An update on going abroad this summer. I decided about 6 months ago that I'm going overseas. Where? I don't know. I'm praying for a partner to go with me to South Asia (i don't want to go alone for safety reasons.... and it'll be nice to have company to serve with). I do.... I have a special heart for people who don't live in the luxury I have hear and I've always yearned to live more simply, to be exposed to what injustice is and to somehow help to stop it. The more I think about going abroad, the more excited I get, even though I don't know where the Lord wants me to go yet. But right now, I'm almost certain that He wants me to go. I've always thought, I want to leave a mark on this world for Christ and for everything that he's done in my life and this is one of the most tangible ways I can. So many people have left their mark on my life and God has been gracious in showing me His power, grace and love, I can't possibly think of doing anything else.

SAR

SAR = Structure Activity Relationships.

AND I HAVE ONE!!!! ::raving gf post ahead:: <3<3<3

I <3 pharm chem. I <3 it so much that I'm getting tested on it on the day of LOOOOOOOVEEEE. I've been sleeping with pharm chem every night and it's been the FREAKING BEST I'VE EVER HAD!!!!

i know.. how inappropriate is my post right now. but you have to understand... i'm shellshocked from the volume of exams we've had in the past month. excuse my inappropriateness.... but i <3 pharm chem. I love it so much that i think about it every moment of every day. even when i'm spending time in other classes.

oh well.

Fear and Music

Yay for BMG! Got my midterm madness care package today of 6 cds all for 5.99 free shipping and handling.

Brandon Heath: unknown.. but very very good.
City on a Hill: The gathering
Michael Buble: It's Time
Casting Crowns: Lifesong
John Mayer: Continuum
Caedmon's Call: In the Company of Angels

The last one is 'cause I miss Christina, Jeff, Kev and hanging out in Kev's Camry.

Now on to fear:

Fear is crippling. I've lived in fear. Fear of judgment, fear of rejection, fear of death, fear of the dark. (strangely enough... not fear of public speaking). But the fighting part of me laughs in the face of fear and in a sense... I'll hurl myself down a double black and not look back.

I can't imagine people living under the cloud of fear their whole life. Eventually it's gonna come, bite you in the butt and you'll have to face it. I was scared.. i had 2 choices: run or face it.
Which one's worse?
running is better in the short term.
facing is better in the long term.

Whatever you're afraid of...face it. Hurl yourself down the mountain telling yourself that you'll eventually get down. You'll get hurt (maybe), but going down that slope successfully will be satisfying beyond measure.

"There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love."

3 minute post

Things have been hectic.

It's been a very very eventful few weeks so far and yeah...

But on a more relaxing note, I got my first professional massage ever a couple days ago and OH MY GOODNESS, it was awesome. The therapist did pressure point myotherapy to relieve soreness from boarding in Tahoe. it felt like I was being pricked with a needle, and then all of a sudden this overwhelming sense of relaxation came from my muscles. Wow, I think I'm gonna get a massage everytime I come back from Tahoe. Maybe even after midterms. Once a week would be awesome, but of course I don't have the time OR money.

Anyway, times up. Gotta go!